I shouldn't have returned. I have left.

2008 was a mistake. I shouldn't have come back.

Sometimes dwelling on past choices makes you feel contained. :)

The anatomy of an annoying guy .

Coming soon !

I can see the relevance of my action.. and i was right all along.

“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.”

-Winston Churchill

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

-Steve Job

Everything I do is a step forward.

I'm not your boy toy,
Boy toy
I'm just a sexy boy,
Sexy boy
I'm not your boy toy,
Boy toy

I been there, done that and I ain't lookin' back on the seeds I've sown.

Jim

There is no end to it, endure. :)

"Jazz was not only built in the minds of the great ones, but on the backs of the ordinary ones."
-Cab Calloway

Gosh .

Never thought I'd sound so emo writing those posts below . So unliking this.

Wasted opportunity

" Every time an opportunity comes knocking at my door, I welcome it into my life. . and destroy it. "

People struggle for years to reach out for the things they want most, they put up an effort, but just an inch shorter before grabbing them.

I've managed to grab the things I want most, I've held them by my hands, cherished them,..then throwing them down the toilet bowl. Now why would one do such things? Is there something wrong with me? Can't my brain compute the term "blessing"? Or am I always not satisfied with everything I've got? Am I seeking for something more, something that is impossible to achieve because the achievable has been achieved. Wiser men call this "young men's obsession". Nothing is ever enough ey?

The sadder part is realising what you've lost when failing to obtain the "seemingly impossible to achieve". In the end, you are left with nothing. You have someone to love, you carry her around for a year or so, then you let her go, thinking she wasn't "the one". haha. Sounds rather childish no? Boy has watched too much movies that the term "reality" can't be computed in his mind.

Glad I've grown out of that.


Jim

Being different has a price.

I like being unique. I like being different. I am born with it. It is by choice as well.
Some people don't find it appealing though. By nature, when the majority is challenged by the minority, the latter tend to get punished or discriminated.
Being different can benefit you in many ways. It shows your maturity and experience over your peers and society.

Being different increases your chance of achieving greatness. Unfortunately, every greatness has a price. People will oppose you. Why? - Because you are different from them. A person would want others to think and act like him/her. Similarity is a goal to every living being, and uniqueness is bound to be challenged. THAT my friend, is human nature.




p/s: MJ understood human nature. He'd achieved greatness. Look what discrimination had cost him.

When you rely on time.

Some people take a month to get over it. Some need several weeks. Others require a year or more. Some just can't seem to forget for the rest of their lives. Till this day, it's been nearly a year for me. :)


Jim

When liking and disliking no longer matter.

Blogging is never my thing. The idea of writing an account on oneself's life is over-rated.
I've always been an old-school type of person. I regard those who express their feelings on the net as merely emos and attention-grabbers. But from today onwards, I shall join the ranks of those so called attention-grabbers. There's a strong desire to do so. When this kind of scenario happens, one's life is surely not in peace.

I want to achieve a peaceful state of mind at most times. Therefore, I write how I feel.. I write what disturbs me..I write about my past.. I write about my present.. I write about what I hope for the future. This blog is an account of a guy who hasn't reached the optimum satisfactory level in life.

Happy reading.

Jim

Jon Bon Jovi- Blaze of Glory

This song reflects my life.

Woke up in the morning and I saw your pretty face.....


July 27th is the turning point.
July 27th is the cause of the long depression.
July 27th is the reason why I open up.
July 27th is the reason why I lose my ego.
July 27th is the reason everything falls apart.
July 27th is the cause of how I realised my mistakes.
July 27th is why I care about people.
July 27th is why I stop being selfish.
July 27th makes me wiser but weaker.
July 27th is the reason I lost my identity.
July 27th is the reason why I find it hard to rise back up.
July 27th pulls me down.
July 27th kills my former self.
July 27th is responsible for the change I will make.


Jim.